#thedertings

It all started 13th years ago on a Friday, mid-afternoon, standing on the 2nd floor of West Iredell High School near the (what use to be) computer labs, our junior year. Brooks was at the end of the hallway and I was at one of the classroom doors...I think that he was about to be late for class and I was about to go into my class....he said to me, "I know your phone number" and I said "yeah, what is it" and he recited my home phone number because (as hard as it is to believe) cell phones had not made their HUGE technological debut at the time. My reply to him was, why don't you use it sometime. So that night a friend and I went to the football game at Bunker Hill and on the way home I, for some reason, stopped by his house. When I left that night he hugged and kissed me goodnight...and I still can see this scene in my head, I had butterflies that night, and something told me that it was meant to be. So that night he used my phone number and called me, we ta...

I am not sure today! It's not a bad day, but it's not the best day, maybe just a blah day.....do you ever have those days? Nothing stands out as great, but nothing as terrible either. Brooks and I had fun last night. We went to the Melting Pot and it was delicious!! If you have never been, I highly recommend!! Also, I recommend that you don't do the whole meal....the past couple of times we have gone we have only gotten a salad (which they have the BEST dressing that I have ever found), then we do the cheese fondue, and then we get the chocolate fondue. We have found that this way you are not stuffed by the time the chocolates come, but yet you are still full when you leave. This is also, $50 cheaper than getting the "Big Night Out"....I don't like meat that much anyways, so Brooks usually eats most of the meats when we do the whole meal, so it is well worth just getting 3 for us. Afterwards we went to Concord Mills and did some shopping and Brooks even tried ...

I did and I don't like it! I don't like going to bed with bad things running through my mind. I don't like thinking that 10 weeks ago everything was fine and another child was just a question. Is it bad that I want to turn back time and erase this whole thing? I think, in my thoughts, last year at this time we were happy without a care in the world, then winter, spring, and most of the summer went the same way and now this. My problem is I can't stop questioning why we did this....were we 100% sure that we wanted another baby, I can't answer yes to that because I don't know if we were. Were we trying so that Bryson would have a sibling because we thought he needed one, maybe. Did we do it because I was tired of the questions....when are you going to have another one, perhaps. Did it happen because having more than one is the norm, you tell me, is it? Was there anything wrong with the way we were before, NO! Were we happy, YES! Am I sad now that 10 weeks has dras...

I experienced many firsts today on this 1st day of October. I should start by saying that I am very glad that I have turned my calendar over to a month that looks better and brighter than the last. For some reason September has never been my favorite month and right now it's falling at the bottom of the list.We are entering one of my favorite times of the year and I am very optimistic that it will bring fun times and great memories just as the last few months of the year always do. I went to work today and I am happy that the 1st day back is over....I will never face this day again. It wasn't a bad day, many people shared their thoughts, shared their hugs, their love, their smiles and that was all ok! This morning I had my 1st breakfast of champions since finding out....I have been eating fruit loops and drinking orange juice every morning since school started, so today I had it for the 1st time (go figure it tasted the same). I wore a long sleeve shirt for the 1st...

WOW! What a week! I would like to dedicate this blog to ALL THE POSITIVES in our lives!! First of all, I need to say a HUGE thank you to our wonderful co-workers, close friends, facebook friends, and our families! I truly believe that this week has turned out to be an ok week because of you all. To everyone that has sent sweet notes, given thoughtful grins, been there to listen, been there to read our story and MOST of all to EVERYONE that has said a prayer for us this week! No matter if it was one prayer or many YOU are very responsible for my positive mood and attitude today and for days to come. I would also, like to thank you God for listening and answering all of the prayers that you and we have sent him! I am very humbled and appreciative for everything this week. Please know that I never doubted for once that we were not loved and cared for, but this week has shown us that we are more blessed than I ever imagined and we will never take that for granted! So we went to the d...

I've been thinking because that is all I have to do.......I like numbers and I like to make things make sense in number form. I don't like math, so it's odd that I have this obsession with numbers, but I do. My favorite, I guess you could call it lucky number, is 44!!! Love this number, this number has been around for me for a long time. It's in my license tag, it was my teller number at the bank, it just follows me everywhere. I am not sure why, but if I see this number somewhere I know it's going to be a good day. So anyways enough about my number, here are some more number thingys that I find in my life to be interesting....in 1995, October to be exact I lost my grandmother, then in December (same year) I lost my grandfather and great grandfather. This was a tough year, it was my freshman year of high school and it started out really bad and my mother still continued to make me play in the stupid band, which sticks out as something terrible from that year too. ...

I was soooo looking forward to this week....2 days of teaching and finishing up a whole unit, that we have worked so hard on for several weeks, then 2 days at a workshop, which are always fun because its something new and different and you get to go out to lunch like adults do, instead of eating in the school's cafeteria, then on Friday was a scheduled doctors appointment to hear the baby's heartbeat and then we were off to the beach for the weekend. Something told me not to post my status for FB as: "Looking forward to a fun week" because that same something told me my week was not going to go as planned and how I wanted it to on my calendar. On Monday, I started having some complications and by Tuesday I knew that there was a problem and I needed to go to the doctor now, not Friday. Well, we went to a new doctor (because mine would not see me and acted as if I was crazy for even calling, I will not mention names, but that is no longer my doctors office), I was calm ...