It has been 1 week since my negative post....and although its not been totally deleted, I did feel the need to just share it on my blog......and to remove it from FB.....(1st post I have ever been convicted to remove)
As its getting late and I would rather be going to bed...something is pushing me to write...however this time I feel like this is going to go in a more positive direction.....
Last Thursday, after my post and running till dark...I still felt NEGATIVE....I wasn't myself and nothing went right....mom came on Friday and we decided to get in the car and drive away on Saturday....probably the best decision I made all of last week....it was nice to get away from every thing and forget that I was so negative for 24 hours.....it also helped that we did a little shopping too ;)
I have had a better week, the to-do list looks manageable, and I have been on top of the 20 minute chores this week....which somehow makes me feel like I am on top of the world......
HOWEVER I have learned A LOT this past week....not just with work and not just with personal stuff...I have learned that there are so many situations out there that we don't know the whole story to and maybe never will....there are so many people out there so worse off than me....there are so many bad/negative things in this world and my problems are minuscule compared to MOST....I have learned that I (the Dertings) have so much to be thankful for....I have learned that when my kids at school see that my mood is not normal and they can tell something is wrong with me....they ask to pray for me (they are 8-10 keep in mind).....I have been reminded that my babies see me as the light of their lives (if they only knew they are what makes me shine).....I have been reminded that my husband loves me no matter how much I complain and he has to listen to my stories over and over.....I have been reminded that my mother will take me away for the weekend to make me feel better....I have been reminded that my father doesn't say much, but I always know he cares....I have been reminded that my brothers....call and text me daily because they trust (I think) my advice.....
So although I acted like a brat last week....lessons were learned from that pity party!
I just keep coming back to the fact that we don't know what another person may be going through....we only walk in our own shoes and no one else's.....we can only see what others let us see....we (I especially) have got to remember that I don't know what others lives truly look like...too often we get caught up in OUR own wants and needs and FORGET that others may have bigger issues that they are dealing with....
I am hoping that this positive energy that forced me to write tonight will stick around and override those negative feelings that come so much easier!
I told ya...I would be more positive next time...it just took me a week to realize and find that positivity!
Much LOVE to you and POSITIVE vibes your way!! Alysha
