So I don't remember with Bryson being a psycho, crazy person and if this is the way I am going to be till August, then I may need to be hospitalized for insanity until this baby comes....b/c I am not sure I will make it or Brooks!
I have not had the best week and I really don't want to complain, but I am just to my breaking point, which brings me to today's event.........I had a MAJOR meeting at 8 am with a parent and several other people, so I get to work at 7:37 and a friend tells me that my pants were RIPPED in the back and only continuing to RIP more as I move! Now at this point I have a smile on my face as I type this, but 13 hours ago I was LIVID! 1st of all this are the STUPID maternity jeans that I paid $45 for at Kohls...I already had problems with the jeans b/c the leg inseam is not straight and crosses my foot instead of the side of my leg when I wear them, so they were already CRAP, but I decided since I had washed and worn them I would just keep them and then today THEY rip! So I FLY home, change pants, FLY back and walk in at 7:59....still not real sure how I pulled that off and I apologize to all the people I yelled at on the way to and from!
That was the start of my day and it only continued to not get worse, but just not get better....I pretty much lost it with Brooks today only b/c he thought he would be helpful by taking the day off tomorrow to bring Bryson to Kindergarten :( registration (another emotional train wreck) and then get everything ready for us to go to the beach.........well I see this as UNFAIR....THAT I HAVE TO WORK AND HE GETS TO TAKE OFF! I am the one that has struggled all week with what feels like a million issues....pants that fit last week and this week don't OR rip apart! I am the one who wants to be off for Bryson to go to screening, but I am the one that has to work.....I just saw this as completely UNFAIR.....so I shed MANY ridiculous tears, till he promised me that he would go to work until I got off! I know it sounds crazy, but I really have lost all control over everything at this point including my way of rationalizing things!
Thankfully we are going to the beach this weekend......I am not really sure that I could stay at home this weekend.....I need a BREAK....like yesterday! So I hope that you have a GREAT weekend and please know that if you run into me and I am crazy.....I do realize this, but I have not found a way to control it at this point and please know that maybe one day I will be normal (if that is possible) again! Have a good one! Love always! Alysha
