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It's been too long...

I have found myself being way too negative lately and the way I like to clear that negativity is to write...I am not sure where this is going and no clue how it will end up, but I can only hope that my mood will be more positive by the end.....so back out now if you don't want me to be real......

This is the crazy time of year that my job starts to wear on me...and as the days drag on this year is no different.....testing season is so close, deadlines are closing in, and lets face it everyone is ready for the END.....

I was so negative at the beginning of the year and tried really hard to figure out why and I truly think now that it was my intuition preparing me for a trying year (probably my hardest to date).....I feel like I have not been on top of any thing all year...my to-do lists never go away (if you know me, you know this kills me), problems walk through the door 14 times a day...and then Monday night I said to Brooks I think I can see the end...and as soon as I say that I find 20,000 more issues sitting at the door......

My goal has always been to help kids with special needs....because I was that kid that wasn't A honor roll...EVER....and the more I feel like I try to help these kids the more road blocks are thrown in my way and theirs too...it's not FAIR....I know life isn't fair....but WHY do we, as a society, continue to force children to perform on adult levels...why don't we listen to them and their needs...why does everything have to be so "researched based" and "data driven"....these kids are kids...not products plugged into a formula....I find myself daily battling for what I believe in, what I KNOW kids need because bottom line I know these kids....


This is WAY too negative and the very reason that I had to write it....I don't deal well with negative/stress..so I am letting it go!!

I hope you are well and more positive than me.....

Much love...next time I will be happier....Alysha

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